420
I hate April 20 th , because I know that so many of you will spend the day retarded. If I run into you, I will be angry, pissed off and generally unhappy. I am not saying that I think it is a bad thing. I just hate being around people who are stoned. Unless, of course, I am in the process of making them do something idiotic for my entertainment, then I will tolerate you. Today is not that kind of day. Today, I am running with a very short fuse, I am burned out, tired and pissed off.
Those of you on probation don't ruin it for yourselves. It is simply not worth it. I'm sure the idea of not being able to smoke weed on 420 seems like the end of the world, but how does jail time sound instead?
I will admit my opinions are biased, because I have been clean and sober for damned near two years now, and that being the case I also believe that I can better examine this from multiple angles. If you are smoking weed to dull the pain of some of your problems, just stop now and here are my reasons:
- Because you are a pussy who cannot face his/her problems.
- Because it is a pathetic way to live, and it will lead you into true addiction and then you will end up that pathetic old person who could never get their shit together long enough to hold down any type of decent job and you will be fifty years old, wearing a tie-dye shirt, wondering if you are going to have enough for rent every month (and that's ok, but only through your twenties).
- Just because you don't smoke alone, doesn't mean you are not an addict, and yes weed is addictive, both physically and psychologically, sorry to tell you the truth and anybody who tells you different is lying, or trying to sell you something.
For the rest of you, do what you want, chances are as your life progresses you will either wise up and quit or slowly, unaware of it, watch your life slide away, you having accomplished little to nothing. Of course I could be wrong, I am just retelling the general story that I have seen and heard from literally thousands of people.
My name is Richard, I am an alcoholic and an addict, and I will be my entire life. I will never be able to control my drinking, or drugging, so instead I choose to abstain from them. This is not a lecture; this is my opinion, based on my own experiences as well as others. I have seen had many friends; die from overdoses, and psoriasis. I have friends in their twenties with livers that are already going bad. I write this not as an anti-drug message to everyone but just to those who cannot control themselves when they do.
Test yourself, can you have just one or two drinks, do you even see the point in drinking unless you are going to get drunk? Can you take just one hit, do just one line, shoot up just a little, one time? You know the answer and frankly I don't care. Don't come to me with your problems unless you really want help. Because, if you want help getting through your probation or this next drug test then go fuck yourselves. I am sick and tired of you assholes asking me, "Hey, how long does this stay in my system?" and other bullshit like that. Yes, I know the answers because I was once that pathetic too. Either do it right and completely destroy your life, and experience death, and if you come back from it all, use it as a learning experience. If not, I'm sorry.
Today Is April 20 th , 2004 and I hate most of you.